Missing him...

Do you ever feel like you are are on the verge of tears.....and not wanting to release? That is how I feel today. I suppose it doesn't help that it is raining either. I am so sad and miss my Honey so much that it hurts. Just when you think you are doing o.k. and your goal is do-able and within reach, you realize how much you still have left to go. Although I have 5 months of this deployment "under my belt", I still have more than that to finish. I am sad that my best friend is not here. I am sad that he is missing so much of the girls' lives. Sammy is talking now....Joyanna started eating baby food yesterday (yes...I started 2 days earlier than the suggested 6 months date), and Hannah is mastering addition. So many milestones, and wishing he were here to share them with us. I can only pray that the LORD will do "more than I can ask or imagine" and make up for lost time when Hans returns. That the LORD will "restore unto us, the years the locusts have eaten away"(Joel 2:25). I am counting on it! I will keep waiting, serving and worshipping until Honey returns or Jesus does. Whichever comes first. My song for this deployment is "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. Here are the words.

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You,

LordThough it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Takeing every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve You

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve You while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting

I will serve you while I'm waiting

I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord